| Location | Dana Usa |
| Age | 5 days |
| Cause of Death | Meningitis |
| Date of Birth | 01/07/2008 |
| Date of Death | 06/07/2008 |
| Visitors | 2,855 since 11/07/2008 |
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Roman's Story
I got home from a 3 day hospital stay Monday afternoon (June 30th) and Tuesday morning (July 1st) at 4:50am I felt like I had to pee bad. Well it wasn't pee. My water broke. Brad immediately called 911 and our nearest hospital. While on the phone with the hospital, out came Roman at 5:15am. Brad did awesome! He was scared and freaking out but he was so strong for me. He helped deliver the baby and keep him warm until the ambulance came.
The ambulance took me to Pontiac hospital and they life flighted Roman to the NICU in Peoria. My mom and dad, who were visiting from West Virginia, went with Roman and Brad stayed with me. I had to have a D&C since the placenta wasn't fully "expelled."
Roman's lungs weren't fully formed and he was dependant on a respirator. He also had some placenta blood back flush into him and he was all red in color. The nurse also said he hasn't been moving except for twitches and involuntary movements because he's using all his energy to profuse the oxygen. Brad had to consent for a bunch of things such as blood transfusion (just in case) while I was out for the D&C and he was all worried that he did the right thing.
Brad and I were with Roman until 4am Saturday (July 5th) morning. We went back to the apartment we were staying at and got a call at 11am (Sunday July 6th)from the hospital requesting we come right away. We got up and zoomed over to the hospital (only 2 blocks away).
Dr. Hocker, the head pediatrician, was our doctor this weekend. We had a meeting with him and they found out so many things about Roman over night. He had:
-Spinal meningitis
-Blindness
-Hydrocephalus
-His brain was only firing minimal synapses (no movement was controlled, only jerky moves)
-Cerebral palsy
-His lungs were failing and he needed nitrogen pumped into his oxygen to keep O2 flowing
-His bowels weren't fully formed so they couldn't give him nutrition other than by blood because he had no way to expel it from his body (poop)
-Severe brain damage, would never have logic or reason or be able to understand or communicate
-Blood was bypassing his lungs and his body was reverting to in-utero status
Brad and I had a BIG decision to make. Did we want Ro to be in this state forever or did we want to stop life support and let our son rest after fighting SO hard?
We decided since our son would have no quality of life to disconnect the life support. We both got to hold him while he was still hooked up to the vents and we got pictures. We cried, prayed, and said our "good-byes" and told him that we would see him again in Heaven when Heavenly Father chose our time to be with him again. We then left.
My mom and dad were there and they cleaned him up, dressed him in a suit, and removed the vent. Mom was there when he passed officially. I just couldn't do it. I didn't want to let my son go. EVER. But that was being selfish of me. Roman was so tired from fighting he was on his 3rd blood transfusion of the day, and it had only been2 hours since his last 3 transfusions. He fought so hard he was using up all his white blood cells just to fight the infections, swelling, and other issues. I could just tell by looking at my son that he was so tired and he needed us to let him know it was ok to rest. He fought hard enough.
~~July 6th, 2009 Roman's first angelversary poem:
Today my angel watches over me,
It is his first angelversary.
My heart is heavy, my heart is sad,
You are missed by your Mom and Dad.
Balloons will float up to the sky,
Tears will be shed, yes we will cry.
But living in Heaven there is no pain,
And I know at my time I will see you again.
Your little hands touched so many lives,
A love stirred up, in us revives.
Missing you dearly each and every day,
You, my son, are the reason I pray.
Please give me a sign you are watching from above,
Let me know you can still feel our love.
I wish our two worlds weren't so far apart,
But Roman, my baby, you're always in my heart.
~~~July 1st,2009 Roman's first birthday poem:
Today, my son, you are 1 year old
I wish you were here for me to hold.
Will you be watching me today from above,
Will the sun shine or will it be cold?
Can you still feel how much you are loved
With wings you fly, now like a dove
I miss you my Roman, sweet little boy
But life's circle closed, away you were shoved.
A bond was made, can never destroy
The love that is felt, you are my joy
I will never say the word "good bye"
I'll love you forever, my sweet little boy.
Tears flow, yes I still cry
In Heaven my angel, with wings you fly
Until we meet again my sweet Roman,
I see you as my star in the sky.
ღ ღ ღ All My Love Beautiful Angel ღ ღ ღ
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*ღ.......ღ* *ღHeavenly *ღ.......ღ* *ღ shona sengupta. ..ღ*
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How will heaven be?
As far as I can see
It will have huge bells
And will be situated on clouds
It will have many golden wells
That will so often swell
Rain will be abundant
And the sun will shine all day long
Angels will play on the harp
The sweetest summer song
Music that will touch the heart
While those beneath will shed drops of sorrow
Little will they know what will happen on the morrow
But to them up above
As plain and clear it will be
As far as far as I can see
Yes there will be misty alleys
And lush green meadows
Fresh with the fragrant smell of spring
Winter will never be bitter
Summer never so hot
Autumn never so bare
And resources never so scarce
Food for all will be relished by all.
Grateful we’ll be as grateful can be
Mountains high and strong and brown
Surrounding that hidden land,
Beautiful and vast seas I see
There colour as blue as sapphire can be
And the white waves lashing upon the shore
Sitting on the flattened grey rocks
Who would not call it absolutely heavenly?
However it might actually be,
But can we still not see
There will lie behind this seen
A relieving feeling of bliss
For where not have we been
But is this not by all believed
That after one’s decease
This is the land of eternal peace
Where we all ultimately reach?
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My little angel with cherub wing
Plays in the clouds while angels sing.
"Happy Birthday!" they yell, dance and proclaim
To my little fighter with such a strong name.
Today is the day on which we rejoice
When He made me your Mommy, an excellent choice!
Although you're not here for me to hold
You are with Him, our father, turning 3 years old.
For days and for nights I've gone without sleep
Wondering how, your memory I should keep.
Do I sit and whimper and mourn for my loss
Or should I celebrate, with a big party to toss?
You are my son, my gift from above
No matter how I spend my day you can feel my love.
It radiates like the sun to heaven up high
Penetrates the clouds, the wind and the sky.
You were give to us, a son I did pray.
Even if, for a short time, on Earth you did stay.
We held you and watched, took pictures galore
Not knowing what God had for you instore.
My spiritual being has been tried and I've shown
Meaning has been given, I'm not alone.
You dance in the clouds with babies who've passed
And feel the love that distance can outlast.
Happy 3rd Birthday my son, Roman, I miss
I will send up a cloud; upon it a kiss.
A gift from Mommy and Daddy for you keep
Place it on your cheek while you nod off to sleep.
BIG HUGS ROMAN
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⋱♰⋰ Angel Day ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Your Angel Day in Heaven ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Many tears will fall for you ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ You touched so many loving hearts ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ There’s so many missing you ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ As you now live in paradise ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Its Heaven up above stay ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Close to all your loved ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ ones For it’s you they ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ miss and love ⋱♰⋰
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⋱♰⋰ bigs hugs from me to you and your ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ family and friends that you miss you ever day ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ but in our hearts forever you will not be ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ forgoten you take care love from me ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Sylvie mommy of Samantha ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Belanger hugs and XXXX ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ bye for now good ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ night ⋱♰⋰
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....Goodnight and God Bless..........
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I wrote your name in the sky
But the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand
But the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name on my heart
And forever it will stay.
Love you baby,
Mommy
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROMAN
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY
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Birthday Remembrance
Thinking of you on your birthday Judy
But that is nothing new
For no day dawns and no day ends
Without a thought of you.
We cannot send a birthday card,
Your hand we cannot touch,
But God will take our greetings
To the one we love so much.
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love you take care big hugs to you
and your family that miss you ever
day more then words can say take
care bye for now love from me
Sylvie mommy of Samantha Belanger
Happy Birthday
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Precious Child by Karen Taylor Good
In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still
In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still
In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart
A Birthday In Heaven - Author Unknown
I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).
Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.
There is a birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play the fool
And sleep in Angel’s wings.
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.
With love from your little Angel xxx
Little Roman
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Rest your weary head and drift off into dreams,
Frolic in the sunshine and bathe in God's moonbeams.
Use the stars as stepping-stones to take you to your peace,
The pain of life forgotten now you have found release.
Without rain a flower folds, the petals drop and die,
There was no way to save you, you couldn't even cry.
So we cry all the tears instead as we must let you go
To Heaven, and God's garden to blossom and to grow.
The little seed is planted, you'll be watered every day,
The angels will tend all your needs as in their arms you lay.
Your life will be amazing now and full of wondrous things,
Rest in peace, dear, sweet Baby, go fly on angels wings.
Hi Mommy's Baby
I miss you honey. You would have been 6 months and one week old today. Sometimes it's hard for me to go a day without sobbing thinking of you. I wonder if my counseling is helping but anything has to be better than wallowing in misery all day.
At times I feel like I have to bottle it all up because your daddy doesn't want to talk about you. Your memories hurt him too much and mommy can't just ignore her pain.
We love you sweetie and miss you terribly!
Mommy & Daddy
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